A heart to heart chat with the Universe

Lately, the Universe has been trying to speak to me and I kept ignoring it. But, it has been relentless in sending me reminders to have this chat. These reminders make my heart feel not empty, not in pain, but disturbed and emotionally agonized. To get this feeling out of my chest, I finally decided to heed the Universe’s call and ended up writing this article as I listened. What is the universe trying to tell me?

I am hearing many helpless voices and noises – the key word here is helpless. But I also see selfishness, stinking egos that lack of empathy and deliberate destruction of lives and livelihoods.

Do you listen and watch mainstream news? I sometimes do. When I do, it is almost always a torturous and depressing experience. But what exactly do you hear and see? I hear the struggles of humans manipulating each other to be in a position of power and conquering one another. It is a battle among ourselves. It is those at no fault, with an interest to just live a decent life and experience the gift of life, that get to experience the brunt of unexplainable appetite to destroy each other for power, resources and dominance.

I am hearing conspiracy, brainwashing and manipulation to justify inhumane acts that illegitimatize normalcy and lack of respect for diversity.

The universe pointed me to the impact we are having on the environment – and no, this is not cliche type of environmental protection advocacy. There’s actually no conspiracy to the locusts, huge fires, floods, landslides, melting ice, earthquakes, hurricanes and tsunamis. Sadness and despair has become a constant. I feel like we are re-living the events of the old testament.

The Universe is saying that what it has given to us and made it available to us for free, we have used it to render the sacred value of human life meaningless. It’s a shame.

For sure the secrets of the Universe are deep, the discoveries and innovations made over time are secrets of the Universe revealed to us in small portions. Imagine if all the knowledge we have today, was made available to us centuries ago, and if we had the same level of self destructiveness we uphold today…your guess is right, you and I would likely not be here today! Ignorance is bliss transcends – the reality we are living today, if we remain deaf to the voices of helplessness.

As I take a moment to reflect again, I hear/feel like the Universe is saying, we are reaching a tilting point. We have not only used these sacred secrets of the Universe to destroy ourselves but now we have considered ourselves conquerors of the Universe and even daring to destroy planet earth as we know it.

The Universe is resetting itself. If I say it is detaching its affiliation with humans, it will be an understatement.

The level of self importance we have given ourselves over others and the world around us, is so ridiculous. I can’t help but to think of my several encounters with the Universe that awakened my awareness of how majestic the Universe is in comparison to a human being. I mean you first have to be humble to understand. Let me share with you, what I saw and experienced when I chose to be humbled.

I went snorkeling in one of the many beautiful coastlines of Tanzania in a region called Tanga. I was staying at my very good friend’s place called Kijongo Bay Beach Resort, on a private beach front with all sorts of luxurious indulgences. The private boat trip to the island where we went snorkeling was fantastically organised. The experience and wonder of life I saw under water was out of this world. It was my first snorkelling experience. Some small friendly fish would swim with me just right below me, who sent them? Well, as the tide started rising back I could feel in my legs, how warm and cold waters from the deep ocean were mixing. It was time to go back to the resort. On our way back, while on the boat, as I was admiring the water, I had a moment. What I was looking at, wasn’t just water, this was a vast water body around us, we seemed to be in the middle of nowhere. As the boat was cutting through the waves, I noticed how the water did not seem to be influenced by our presence, even by far. This water body of the Indian ocean was so majestic. I noticed how it completely has a life of its own, it was doing its own thing, it was making sounds, moving to its own rhythm and according to its plan. In human terms, I would have said the water was arrogant and snobbish. In this moment, I was made aware of how small me and our boat was in comparison with its majesty. I can’t fully explain the feeling I got from that realization.

Well, the true awakening moment was many years ago, when I finished my O’levels. The famous Aunty in my last blog on adulting, gave me a Bible as a graduation gift. It was the only form of book that I took with me in my trip to our village (see article). It is during this time that I read the Bible through and through. Please don’t ask me to quote Bible verses today, because you will think I am bluffing.

I thoroughly enjoyed the chapters on Wisdom in the book of Proverbs. As I continued reading the Bible, I was in so much awe with the characters of the Old Testament and their encounter with God. I started yearning and praying for that encounter. Others wrestled God, others heard his voice, others saw a fire in the bush got startled and started taking off their sandals. I also wanted to know God that way, like God to be that pal of mine I hangout with on Fridays for Happy Hour. Be very careful of what you wish for.

I was sleeping one afternoon when I heard an overwhelmingly strong wind coming. I could not open my eyes but it was not dark either, it was like being inside a strong wind while being able to see, hear and feel it. Its intensity increased as it drew closer to me, I started to worry and got really scared. I couldn’t explain what I was feeling. At some point I remembered I had a brain and started asking myself what is happening. Somehow I was reminded of my prayer/wish to see God and make him my buddy. I wondered if this was ever a wise decision, to make such a prayer request. The experience was too powerful for me to intake. I remember saying, at least in my head and heart, although I don’t know which one of them was in charge then. God! if it is you, please go. Not today. And the encounter left me. I am still unable to explain to date what was that all about. I actually told God to leave me alone. The irony of it all is, he/she actually listened to me. After I cooled down, I knew from then that God can be befriended. I learnt the meaning of being humble there and then. I think with all that is going on around the world today, the Universe is reminding us to just be humble.

The Universe pointed out to me at how COVID-19 has belittled humans. This pandemic has touched upon the very essence of life among humans, which is that we are social beings. We now have to helplessly isolate, distance ourselves from our loved ones, watch them suffer and leave us to this invisible enemy. Insanity. Who would have imagined that our virgin nostrils would have become a touristic destination for swabs?

I actually see how the Universe is resetting itself. I am calling it resetting, but probably it is going about its business according to its own rhythm, just like how I experienced the vast water in the ocean with our little boat trying to cut through it.

The Universe is saying it has been and can do without human interference. The Universe is saying it is too noisy. The voice of the helpless is resounding and the Universe is echoing it.

Understanding how small we are to the universe and why we need to be humble, less feisty and respect the right to live of other human beings, in my opinion is wisdom that surpasses every understanding.

When the earth moves there’s nothing in our power we can do to stop it. Equally and even greater is that, the voices of the oppressed has filled the Universe and it is responding.

As I pen off and go for happy hour following my heart to heart conversation with the Universe, I am curious to hear from you: What is the Universe telling you about what is currently going on in the world? What are you hearing?